fullmoon

Petang tadi, de'X hantar bateri kereta kat my daddy sebab bateri kereta yang beliau bawa g kerja tu kena 'pinjam' untuk kedua kali berturut2.. Masa da nak sampai rumah de'X terpandang langit..fullmoon macam dalam citer werewolf / vampire.. Huhu siyes. Warnanya..saiznya..background awannya..serupa.

Pastu tadi ade lah sekelumit rasa sedih bila tengok wassap kat group training dulu..sume duk citer pasal kerja. So amik keputusan 'mute' group tu untuk seminggu..huhu
Then g luahkan perasaan kat admin group tu pasal tak dapat kerja lagi.. And suddenly he told me something that can be says as a very bright light in the dark of night..

Somebody kirim salam n say sorry about something.. Hoho. Hilang jap rasa sedih tu bila dapat perkhabaran tersebut. Terasa macam bulan tu tercipta untuk de'X je..haha. Even it's not directly from her,but it's still a good thing to know, all  this time i wasn't be forgotten by her.

I'll smile again..

raining n waiting

Now is 'tengkujuh' season, in English maybe we called it as raining season, I'm not sure..huhu. Some people says "rain bring god blessings" but for me rain still rain. Yesterday rain has fell for the entire day..24 hours non-stop. Eh da macam news plak..haha

Hati ni masih bersedih, bukan sebab kekasih tapi sebab tak dapat call lagi. Bila la kerja tu nak panggil aku. Harini few more friends got call from the company..next week they will start working.

This morning, i went to convention merangkap convocation gak la untuk kitorang sume yg join program 4 bulan tu. Meet up with several important people that related to my future still not giving a really good sign for me. They put us(especially me and the another friend) to keep waiting.

I planned to find my own path after this day, but because that person made a promise by the end of this month we will get hired so suddenly my brain said I should wait until the end of this year. He also asked us to enjoy this holidays.. But we told him how to enjoy without having money? Suddenly he said do part time job for pocket money but not for long term.  aigoo

Waiting is suffering,  that's for real!

first failure

Gagal sekali tak bermakna gagal selamanya. Wahh ini ungkapan fantasi masa zaman sekolah. Reality will be totally different n difficult. Bila dah gagal, rancangan asal perlu dipinda, bila dipinda masa pun bertambah, believe or not satu kegagalan mencipta kegagalan lain.

Apahal citer pasal gagal2 ni? Why not about gegurl je? Huhu. Dua minggu weh, dah dua minggu aku memegang unemployment title ni. Even hati ni cuba bertabah facing this moment but god knows me well n better when i read group wassap how happy they are when hsbc called them. Kalaupun ada yg sebahagian lagi belum receive any call yet tapi at least diorang dah tahu keputusan interview tu memihak diorang. Me? Jangankan diri sendiri, friends pon xpercaya aku gagal. They said the interviewer was gender bias. 

I hate to say this because for many years I had develop myself to be positive thinker, but today I need to admit my failure to get my first job, i feel sad when comparing myself with friends who went for the same interview. I feel down when I asked them when will you start working and they said this thursday. I really want to cry on this failure more than when i breakup with somebody few years ago. 

As I have said before, the dominoes of failure. Now i need to buy another chance for my initial plan and hope it will not be too late for me when the chances coming.

time's over

For a long time, last month was a first time I didn't post anything here. Many thing happened lately and I do not have enough time to tell all the stories. =)

I'm going to interview this upcoming Thursday, wish me luck okay. Sadly 7 of us not managed to passed the Boplus test. But they still have chance to build their career here- Cyberjaya. Hope we can continue to be together.

As the bond become tightly.. Our house are not our house any-more, their house not really their house. We can come anytime to each other house for variety of reasons. Watch movie or football and any channels on Astro, play Xbox and most common is for food. 

Wherever light exist, there's always dark. I did  not expected that would happen last night, but I hope nothing happened over the board 'cuz I don't want to be partner in crime. I wanted it too but I want to have it alone.huhu 3=D

Trust

Trust me,
I wont harm you
I'll protect you
I will keep you safe
And I'll never ever try to betray the trust given

Love to be surrounded by girls
Especially those good looking one
Doesn't mean I'm a 'playboy' like some people labeled me
I just want strengthen my confident
To talk, getting ideas for topic
Most thing is to get understanding about them

I glad to have their trust.
They trust me in many situation
That I can't even mention
So I thanks and paid their trust with my life
'Coz trust is a starting for everything

Even I realized
They will not always with me
But I hope they knew
I'm the one who they can trust.

If

I can speak if it's required,

I can tell if I want to.

But I choose to not saying words on something irritating me.

'Coz I lives with people,

Tolerance and patience should take place in many situation.

My heart can turn as hard as rocks.

But mind always told me family and friendship are important than my hurt feeling.


Not many are able to recognized me as a fire, many will say I'm an ice.

I believe when we call somebody with a good name, their behaviour will be likely as their name.

If I can makes people understand me all the time,

I hope conflict never get chances to appear between me and them ( family and friends)


But, as I said before, it's only 'if'

People not machine for us to reset and remove thing we don't want

I can't just come and tell

Hey! I don't like this and that..........

bye, X

From X to so-so

" You're so stupid!"

I supposed to say this word to my friend..

not intentionally but it's a part of expression's role play.

But suddenly it became "

You're so-so.."

when the trainer said 'start'.

I create a situation where a daughter come to his father and said " I failed in exam.."  and the father get angry then say " You're so stupid!" to show how angry he is. But the end that's not happen..hoho

After that, I was awarded as 'king' for the role play and the bad thing is they start to call me as 'so-so' -_-"

I took many years to strengthen 'maXwell' and now they start to remember that so-so's name..haa haa =(

Done thinking how that thing happened.. So I believe that scout spirit always in my heart, the tenth laws is 'Reverence' for words, mind and action.