Mungkinkah tahun ni tahun kesedihan aku? Just talked with my father, dia cakap nenek aku hayatnya mungkin lagi kurang dari jangkaan doktor.
When a men really love someone, he would cry for that person.
At this moment, aku sanggup tak kerja just for take care about a person who raised me up sampai la nafas terakhirnya.
Tuesday, February 25, 2014
Monday, February 24, 2014
dear bidadari
Kenapa ambil berat, kenapa care(peduli) sangat, kenapa mesra macam rapat, kenapa selalu dahulukannya, kenapa selalu melebih-lebihkannya? Kenapa? Dan kenapa?
Sebab.. Tak semua orang boleh ucapkan sayang dan diterima. Dan tak bermakna cinta itu harus memiliki.
We're friends and for me its far better. Saling feel happy to each other with no heart feeling. Bak kata afgan "jika aku bukan jalanmu, ku berhenti dari mengharapkanmu. Jika aku memang tercipta untukmu, jodoh pasti bertemu.. "
Harini dia ditimpa kedukaan, aku lak dapat berita yang menceriakan
menceriakan..tiba-tiba,
Bila lah jodoh nak bertemu ni..ehh!?? :P
Sebab.. Tak semua orang boleh ucapkan sayang dan diterima. Dan tak bermakna cinta itu harus memiliki.
We're friends and for me its far better. Saling feel happy to each other with no heart feeling. Bak kata afgan "jika aku bukan jalanmu, ku berhenti dari mengharapkanmu. Jika aku memang tercipta untukmu, jodoh pasti bertemu.. "
Harini dia ditimpa kedukaan, aku lak dapat berita yang menceriakan
menceriakan..tiba-tiba,
Bila lah jodoh nak bertemu ni..ehh!?? :P
Wednesday, February 19, 2014
I feel
Sejak wan (nenek) been warded, kalau bicara tentang kerjaya, hati ni rasa macam takde mood lak..or maybe I don't have time to think about it...deeply. Tak pasti kenapa dan sejak bila tapi masa awal2 wan hospitalized aku rasa macam aku aktif lagi apply sana sini. Boleh katakan hari2 ak bukak laman2 web carian pekerjaan dan hantar resume.
I'll never give up tapi mungkin perlukan cheerleaders untuk build up enthusiasm yang da kurang sekarang ni.
Orang perasan ILY tu susah nak dengar dari aku..tapi cara aku-percakapan dan perbuatan beritahu apa yang tak terucap tu. Setakat taip kat blog boleh nampak lagi la sayang2 tu.. Out there memang kena tunggu la lau nak dengar..hehe.
You heard someone who you love got cancer and it's already at stage 4..what do you feel?
I'll never give up tapi mungkin perlukan cheerleaders untuk build up enthusiasm yang da kurang sekarang ni.
Orang perasan ILY tu susah nak dengar dari aku..tapi cara aku-percakapan dan perbuatan beritahu apa yang tak terucap tu. Setakat taip kat blog boleh nampak lagi la sayang2 tu.. Out there memang kena tunggu la lau nak dengar..hehe.
You heard someone who you love got cancer and it's already at stage 4..what do you feel?
Sunday, February 2, 2014
February entry
People says :
Semalam
adalah kenangan, Harini adalah kehidupan,dan Esok adalah ketentuan.
I wanna stop talking about the past and try to work out with what I've today to make myself better for tomorrow.
Enough for the luxurious moments in life, relaxing life as student, and happy time as children /teenagers.
As time changing I'm not a cute-adorable boy anymore. My time as teenagers also ended 2years ago.
It's time to facing life brutally. But as a Muslim, Allah is everything.
Semalam
adalah kenangan, Harini adalah kehidupan,dan Esok adalah ketentuan.
I wanna stop talking about the past and try to work out with what I've today to make myself better for tomorrow.
Enough for the luxurious moments in life, relaxing life as student, and happy time as children /teenagers.
As time changing I'm not a cute-adorable boy anymore. My time as teenagers also ended 2years ago.
It's time to facing life brutally. But as a Muslim, Allah is everything.
Monday, January 27, 2014
end of my January
It's really sometime for me to come back to this site.. I was planning to close this account and the other one just before this year get started but unfortunately most of the entries had some nostalgic value to me. Also I have been thinking to make both blogs as hard copy (really??) but its really required commitment from myself to do it.
As the word 'commitment' appears, I am still not understand why I feel hard to find a righteous job for me to start my career path. Because out there I faced with several issues that put me in dilemma but at the end, by decision iI had made, I still in confusing. Did I made a right decision? Three jobs came but non of them missed my kick..the forth coming but I was kinda been advised to not take the job because of the 'S' issue.
Keep waiting? urhh you know it's suffering, especially for me who have big dream.
Despite of all lost and things happened, I was glad cuz I'm here to get involves in family things. An aunt passed away on the sameday my granny got hospitalized. May Allah bless me n my family. Amin
As the word 'commitment' appears, I am still not understand why I feel hard to find a righteous job for me to start my career path. Because out there I faced with several issues that put me in dilemma but at the end, by decision iI had made, I still in confusing. Did I made a right decision? Three jobs came but non of them missed my kick..the forth coming but I was kinda been advised to not take the job because of the 'S' issue.
Keep waiting? urhh you know it's suffering, especially for me who have big dream.
Despite of all lost and things happened, I was glad cuz I'm here to get involves in family things. An aunt passed away on the sameday my granny got hospitalized. May Allah bless me n my family. Amin
Sunday, January 5, 2014
early January
Hi..happy new year to me :-D haha
Lot things happened within 5 days and it would take more than hour if i write details in this entry.
A day before new year I went for an interview and I think I got the job but on the next day (new year) I called the interviewer and choose not to accept the job.
On Saturday 4th during lunch my granfather asked me to bring him to meet his 'biras' at Rawang. So I persuaded my granny to follow us since we're going to meet her own brother and also the only sibling she had today. Even my granny's memory are not good as 3years past but the bond between them still strong and it can be seen from how my granny show her care to her brother which later she forgotten who did she massage n visited. Me? I sat at dining table n never get close to that granduncle all the time.
Today 5th January, early in the morning i heard phone ranging then i heard a confirmation about my granduncle have just past away. I came to the funeral n try be a men but there were time I still have tears in my eyes.. tears of lost of a closest granduncle, regrets for never came near to him on his last day in this world and sad when i saw my grandmother's face who just lost her last sibling. She might cry at the funeral but i knew now she already forgot her brother has had past away.
Life must go on.. Remember people at our past and appreciate people who live today.
Lot things happened within 5 days and it would take more than hour if i write details in this entry.
A day before new year I went for an interview and I think I got the job but on the next day (new year) I called the interviewer and choose not to accept the job.
On Saturday 4th during lunch my granfather asked me to bring him to meet his 'biras' at Rawang. So I persuaded my granny to follow us since we're going to meet her own brother and also the only sibling she had today. Even my granny's memory are not good as 3years past but the bond between them still strong and it can be seen from how my granny show her care to her brother which later she forgotten who did she massage n visited. Me? I sat at dining table n never get close to that granduncle all the time.
Today 5th January, early in the morning i heard phone ranging then i heard a confirmation about my granduncle have just past away. I came to the funeral n try be a men but there were time I still have tears in my eyes.. tears of lost of a closest granduncle, regrets for never came near to him on his last day in this world and sad when i saw my grandmother's face who just lost her last sibling. She might cry at the funeral but i knew now she already forgot her brother has had past away.
Life must go on.. Remember people at our past and appreciate people who live today.
Tuesday, December 17, 2013
fullmoon
Petang tadi, de'X hantar bateri kereta kat my daddy sebab bateri kereta yang beliau bawa g kerja tu kena 'pinjam' untuk kedua kali berturut2.. Masa da nak sampai rumah de'X terpandang langit..fullmoon macam dalam citer werewolf / vampire.. Huhu siyes. Warnanya..saiznya..background awannya..serupa.
Pastu tadi ade lah sekelumit rasa sedih bila tengok wassap kat group training dulu..sume duk citer pasal kerja. So amik keputusan 'mute' group tu untuk seminggu..huhu
Then g luahkan perasaan kat admin group tu pasal tak dapat kerja lagi.. And suddenly he told me something that can be says as a very bright light in the dark of night..
Somebody kirim salam n say sorry about something.. Hoho. Hilang jap rasa sedih tu bila dapat perkhabaran tersebut. Terasa macam bulan tu tercipta untuk de'X je..haha. Even it's not directly from her,but it's still a good thing to know, all this time i wasn't be forgotten by her.
I'll smile again..
Pastu tadi ade lah sekelumit rasa sedih bila tengok wassap kat group training dulu..sume duk citer pasal kerja. So amik keputusan 'mute' group tu untuk seminggu..huhu
Then g luahkan perasaan kat admin group tu pasal tak dapat kerja lagi.. And suddenly he told me something that can be says as a very bright light in the dark of night..
Somebody kirim salam n say sorry about something.. Hoho. Hilang jap rasa sedih tu bila dapat perkhabaran tersebut. Terasa macam bulan tu tercipta untuk de'X je..haha. Even it's not directly from her,but it's still a good thing to know, all this time i wasn't be forgotten by her.
I'll smile again..
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